> Connor Murphy took so much ayahuasca and shrooms that it no longer worked on his brain, and believed that he was God. > > "I'm at this higher state of consciousness and am naturally producing DMT to where psychedelics don't have an impact on me. There is an inner you that is God..." <iframe src="https://archive.org/embed/connor-murphy" width="560" height="384" frameborder="0" webkitallowfullscreen="true" mozallowfullscreen="true" allowfullscreen></iframe> A tragic fate. This archetype of human hates it when you talk to them about controlling their ego. I have seen this archetype, more than any other, fall off that mental cliff of sanity over and over. The man's physiognomy is all ego, the expressions are all ego. Firstly, you do not "travel to other dimensions" - you are merely experiencing the feedback loop of something your mind is ill-equipped and unprepared to see and comprehend. The barrier between these realms exists for a reason - they are placed there by design to protect your sanity. People think I'm joking when I warn about these things for years now, when I warn about the traps of the egoic - especially among young men. When you don't know how to take the portal, the portal takes you. Understand that you are not a God, not while you are in this realm - you are born within the body of God, within the realm of limitations because this is where your lessons lie. There are countless realms, all within primordial thought - unimaginable (quite literally) to most, and your consciousness and imaginative faculty is not prepared (yes, NOT prepared ) to linger in these realms. You must treat these things with the utmost caution, respect and care - these things come slowly, they require years of mastery. Most importantly, they require mastery over oneself. It is also why I teach about spiritual awe. Here is a person who suffers from that exact spiritual awe - where they are trying to make sense of something they cannot fathom or comprehend. When you get greedy and lustful for knowledge and experience - understand that you do it (even if unaware) to somehow elevate yourself over others). No one person is in any way better than the other. When you travel like this for selfish reasons and you are met with the realization that there is no such thing as self in the first place - your ego, in order to preserve itself, uses even that realization as fuel to create a sub-layer of spiritual ego. "I have no ego, I've experienced ego death, I have surpassed you all!" What else were Lovecraft's demons other than the broken mind exposing itself to utter senselessness and delusion. This degree of trauma or disillusion of self fragments the mind. "I was everything all at once!" is a giveaway that the spirit who travels does not know itself. When you are everything all at once yet you do not know your SELF - your self will become lost. Portal drugs are to be used by those who are emotionally stable, spiritually prepared, morally clear and undiluted. If you think you are somehow special and get to skip the line - and that fire will not burn you out of some personal power or skill... If that were the case right now, believe me - you would be hung on a cross that very moment. Faith in the ultimate meaningfulness of life, guidance from the divine - these are the prerequisites for true spiritual vision and clarity. There is a reason your reality is constructed exactly the way it is - you can either accept its lessons with humbleness or become a lesson for others to do the same. A spiritual journey is a slow and deliberate thing, it takes time and care and preparation. If I had seen what I see on a regular basis now 10 years ago, I would have easily succumbed to insanity. Just like the musician who has learnt all the chords and notes can no longer ever enjoy music the same way ever again, so does the spiritual master sacrifice the beauty and simplicity of life for higher knowledge. True knowledge comes at a great cost - and it cannot be unlearned. Vision comes at a great cost - and it cannot be unseen. When a mind has experienced a terrible and awesome truth, one it was not ready to accept - it can only destroy itself to forget it. Life is a beautiful thing. Just the way it is. Not knowing is a beautiful thing. Innocence is a beautiful thing. Have faith and trust that you are guided in a way that is perfect for you. When the Adamic man took from the Tree of Knowledge and learnt about the inevitability of his own Death - it broke him. It broke us on a spiritual level. So much so that the Creator himself had to embody flesh to show us proof of the immortality of spirit, of a life beyond death. All to preserve our sanity.