"Why won't God speak to me if he exists?" Because you don't speak to your conscience. You want to speak to God? God speaks in truth. And you haven't yet taught yourself the language. It is IMPOSSIBLE for a human to not be a believer - if he is RIGHT with his conscience. The masculine expression of God that lives within man is his conscience. The feminine expression of God that lives within man is his intuition. Once these two forces are aligned and followed religiously, life leads man down on his highest path. And showers him with gifts.