Understand that you only have 3 "pushing beyond yourself" periods in life, where you will be given willpower beyond your energetic capacity to create something exceptional. Most people with a truly difficult life will have spent their first one before they reach mature awareness and adulthood. So realistically you only have 2. Some use this to get rich, others for great inspiration, a certain few for magic - transgressive or non. Some use these up by 25 and pass soon after, others wait to use them until 75. Some use these to live a little longer, or never use them at all. Just like a great band has 3 legendary albums in them and all else falls short of their best works, this principle rings true in all areas of life. There is a reason why you might feel hesitant to really "shoot" in life - your body, mind and soul are waiting for the perfect moment for you to unfurl your full potential. If you cannot trust in this truth, you are destined to live a life of comparing yourself to others and feeling guilty for not pushing through when you see others doing it. If you are too weak-minded to believe in a greater purpose for yourself, you will give yourself only anxiety. But if you understand that you are in a state of waiting, that all things are uniquely moving and aligning in your life for you to have your moment of greatness--with divine timing--you will understand the purpose of that greatness better. And the timing will make sense. Life will always corner you into this state - but only when the time is right. Your back against the wall awakens your true nature.